Friday, May 9, 2008

My Journey with Scoliosis

The quick somewhat disorganized story of my back issues...

When I was in seventh grade nurses at my middle school did testing for scoliosis and I was one of the lucky ones who were given a clean bill of health. Shortly after I was sitting in my doctor's office for an unrelated issue and he looked at me quizzically and said that he thought I had scoliosis. I assured him that I didn't because I was just screened at school. He sent me for x-rays and then referred me to a specialist. The specialist told me that I needed to see a specialist/surgeon. What I thought?? I went to The Spine Center in Cleveland, Ohio because they dealt with many cases just like mine every day and was diagnosed with idiopathic scoliosis. Three years later after wearing a lift in my shoe with no success my surgeon told me that I needed to have surgery or my curvature which continued to progress rapidly would cause my heart and lungs to collapse.

So the summer after my sophomore year when I was 15 years old I had a spinal fusion and a thoracoplasty (ribs were shaved from my right side and used to help fuse the rod to my spine). The surgery lasted for seven hours and I was in the hospital for a total of nine days. My surgeon fused a Harrington rod to fourteen vertebrae (Thoracic 1-12 on down to Lumbar 1-2). I had 77 staples and one stitch. I have two scars - a fourteen inch scar a little to the right of my spine and a nine inch scar on my right side.

Post surgery - my back was broken out from the adhesive that held my bandages - the little double dots along side of my insisons are the staple holes.

After surgery I had to wear a brace for six months to stabilize my back and protect my fusion. For some reason I was never given follow-up care regarding what exercises to do to strengthen my back, so I just went about my life the best I could.

Brace Side view


Back view of my brace

Two months post surgery wearing back brace - 15 year old Robin in nurses aid uniform for first day of junior year in HS.

A few years ago after enduring lower back pain ever since my surgery I decided to attempt an exercise program at a local gym. Ever since starting to exercise I have better been able to control my pain although it still comes with regularity its just not constantly severe. It is severe at times, but I work through the pain most of the time using heat, cold, stretching, exercising and sometimes ibuprofen. People most likely wouldn't know I had anything wrong with my back unless I was wearing a form-fitting top (which I don't) or baring my back which I don't except for a few occasions in bridesmaid dresses. Even though my surgeon removed (thoracoplasty) my rib hump it grew back in a very similar pattern to the previous rib hump. My surgery was done long before the information shared in the link above. Sitting against hard surfaces is uncomfortable and I often sit sideways to avoid putting pressure on the right side of my back.

Before I had my daughter I spoke with an anesthesiologist who told me that an epidural wasn't an option for me because of my rod, but God has blessed me with quick labors. My first was born in six hours, but with back labor (sunny side up) and my second came quicker in about four hours. When I had my daughter I didn't realize that I could tell the doctors what I wanted and I just obeyed their orders, but with my son when they gave me orders during labor and delivery I told them their plans didn't work for me and did what I needed to in order to manage my pain.

I've been told by doctors in the years since my surgery that I will have back pain the rest of my life because of my lengthy fusion. All of my spinal flexibility is from Lumbar 3-5 and I have some degeneration between Lumbar 4-5 which also causes pain. I think I manage quite well in spite of the limitations - I don't attempt back bends and have to modify exercises in classes that require back extensions. I feel stronger and healthier now than ever.

I continue to cling to 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 for many parts of my life. Since 100% healing hasn't happened for me I look for opportunities to comfort others in their pain. Sometimes it helps to just know that someone else understands and has been there - knowing you are not alone can really help for one who is dealing with chronic pain.

27 comments:

Indian Lake Papa said...

Very interesting - thanks for sharing! Will be sure to pray for you - Robin is one of my prayer regulars! Love you! :o)

Randi Jo :) said...

oh wow Robin... what a struggle. The things we all take for granted daily.

God trusted you to continue to turn to Him and lean on Him for strength - He trusted you with such a big struggle. I can't imagine all you've been through - but you love the Lord and you wouldn't be who you are today, walking in His path if it wasn't for those struggles maybe?
I'm proud of you (in a little sister sort of way of course). Look forward to learning more from you! :) God bless you girl

Carol said...

Robin, thank you for sharing this painful part of your life with us. You have been through so much in your life, I'm so glad you have committed your life to God, for He alone has been able to see you through this journey, and comfort you in your pain. For having such an uneasy life, you sure express the joy of the Lord well, and you are so caring about everyone in your life. You are a rare flower, Robin, delicate, aromatic, beautiful...life has not crushed you or stomped you out, because you have given your ashes to Jesus, and He has renewed you every morning. So glad I'm getting to know you!

Life Adapted said...

Our issues are only similar in that we must deal with pain each and every day. It's never pain-free, always how much pain today. Pain is an odd concept and if I think on it too long my mind goes to jello. My New Year's Resolutions always reflect my dealing with my back issues - Healing and Harmony, Balance and Boundaries, Rest and Renew, and on days I feel good, I thank God for hearing my prayers of healing. Someday I will be pain free, it may not be until I am in Heaven, but I know it will come - for me and for you. Thanks for sharing.

Anonymous said...

Robin,
You are such a dear friend to me and I know God has blessed me with you. I have known you for about four years now and you opening up like this and sharing your story of your whole back experience with your pain and surgery and how God has carried you is an encouragement to all of us. I love you as my dear sister-in-Christ and you sharing your story has made me realize even more how blessed I am to know you.
Carol said--"You are a rare flower, Robin, delicate, aromatic, beautiful...life has not crushed you or stomped you out, because you have given your ashes to Jesus, and He has renewed you every morning. So glad I'm getting to know you!"
Thank you Carol for using such beautiful words.
Hugs to you Robin. See you in church tomorrow.
Love Laura

Julie said...

Thank you for sharing your experience with your back. It is strange that the screening at school didn't catch it, but they just run their hand down your spine and make you touch your toes. Thank God that Doctor caught it before it crippled you. I don't know why some of us have bigger burdens to carry than others, but it is that way. Can you imagine not having Jesus helping you with this? God has used this pain and ordeal to make you a beautiful woman after His heart, at least as far as I can tell. :)

Paula said...

Thanks for sharing, Robin. I'm so sorry you have the chronic pain. Take rest under His wings.

Robin said...

Papa - thanks for your prayers - they are always appreciated!

Randi Jo - I hardly think of my back issues because they are part of life like eating and brushing teeth - sometimes the pain is worse than others, but God always gets me through.

Robin said...

Carol - you are always so kind. After my experience in the hospital, I thought for sure God wanted me to be a nurse. Actually I had decided prior to my surgery knowing it was coming that I was going to attend the vocational school for two years to study to become a nursing and dental assistant. Then I was planning to spend a year post high school doing the LPN program and then go further in nursing study later. I did wonderful in the course work, but had difficulties when it came to doing CPR and lifting. They cut me some slack because of my brace. Once I was able to be without my brace, I was really weak and decided not to finish my program and to return to my high school for my senior year and finish with college prep instead.

Carol - thanks for your kind words!

jel said...

Hey Robin,
thank you for sharing this with us,
sorry for your pain,
thank you for bee~in U!

happy mother's day!
Robin & Laura!

huggs

Robin said...

Life Adapted - I'm sorry for the pain you deal with every day. My pain has been manageable with heat, cold, stretching and exercise and sometimes Ibuprofen. I know my definite limitations and I don't even attempt them. I've been given some other limitations that I break because I can (tsk tsk) but when the pain is bad I know I can't break them. I do like to be active. Sometimes I do goofy things like lifting things I shouldn't because I want to be helpful - one day I may figure out that its counterproductive. Thing is that when my back isn't bothering me horribly I can do some of the things that I can't do when it is in acute pain. I guess only those who suffer with back pain would understand that.

Regardless of whether or not we see physcially healing here on earth we will one day in heaven. But while we are here let's pray for and encourage each other!


Laura - Thank you for being YOU and for your friendship!

Julie - thanks for your kind words. I'm enjoying getting to know you via the blog world! You know Julie there isn't one of us without some type of "issue" or something we need to lean on Jesus for - in our weakness HIS strength carries us.

QOTW - Thanks for your comments and gentle words!

Jel - Thanks for stopping by and for your Mother's Day Greetings!

Life Adapted said...

Robin, I will pray for you each night when I ask God for healing for myself. On days when there is little pain, I will praise God for His mercies.

Please keep my son in your prayers as his puppy went back to Seeing Eye today. He's been his constant pal for a year and a half. He's very sad today.

Be blessed.

Anonymous said...

Wow, Robin! What an awesome testimony!

Robin said...

Life Adapted - Thank you so much for your kind words and your prayers - it means so much! Sorry to hear about the puppy having to go back...I'm sure its hard.

Ashley - Thanks for stopping by its always nice to hear from you.

Ruthie said...

Thanks for sharing. It helps me to pray for you better. I have a plaque in my study/craft room - "Lord, help me to remember that nothing is going to happen to me toay that You and I together can't handle". I know He will help you with your day to day struggles with your back issues.
Hugs.

Robin said...

Ruthie - thanks for coming by and for your prayers. I feel like I'm doing pretty great these days since I have been managing my back issues well. I really think exercise has played a huge role. I still have the ups and downs, but in the past few weeks I've had more ups than downs. God has been good to me! Even when I have acute pain God helps me deal. Of course I'm not apposed to healing.

Melanie said...

thank you for sharing!

Robin said...

Thanks for stopping by Mel. I felt a bit awkward sharing this, but since people were asking about my back issues I thought it would be the easiest way to answer the questions and humble myself at the same time with the scary pictures of me when I was 15.

Tam said...

Oh Robin. I had no idea. WOW.

I love your perspective on this. Using your affliction to minister to others....for His glory!

What a brave post Robin.

Heather said...

Wow...thank you for sharing that with us! It's stories like yours that give me that daily spanking I need to QUIT WHINING! God has given you incredible strength. Hallelujah!

Love and Hugs!!!!

Robin said...

Tam - thanks for stopping by and your words of encouragement.

Heather - It seems like a lifetime ago that I had the surgery - God carried me then and HE carries me now - just like HE carries each of us through whatever valley or trial that comes our way! To God be the glory!

Indian Lake Papa said...

Robin - just a reminder that today papa is praying for you. Sometimes life can be a real pain in the back - sometimes mama gives me that look like - yeah, pain in the neck too!

Tea with Tiffany said...

Sweet Robin,

I am sorry to read more about your struggles. I hate thinking that you are in chronic pain. You offer so much to the world through your story, your compassion, and your blogs. I'm sure you are a great mom. God uses you everyday in ways you don't even realize. You are beautiful.


Thanks for sharing your life.

Robin said...

Papa - thanks so much for your prayers. I've been away for a couple days and not checking blogs I will get back to them soon. I used the advance automatic post feature to post to my Reading Room, Think on This and Scripture Blogs.

Tiffany - Your kind words of encouragment mean so much! Thank you!

Robin said...

My back has been hurting for a few days and today has begun the acute pain phase, please keep me in your prayers! Thanks!

Faith said...

Wow, you've been through a lot! Thank you for sharing your story with us.

Robin said...

Hi Faith - thanks for stopping by a reading a chapter of my story (we all have many of those). This chapter effects other chapters as they often do. My back has been hurting this week a good deal, but right now it feels better. How are you feeling? Has the MS stayed at bay?